So, I am going to take a few moments to regress to my adolescent years and act like a 14 year old for a few minutes. I thank you for your indulgence. :)
Before I begin, I should mention that I am 32 years old, have not been in a serious relationship for about three years now. Ok, so anyway...
...Last fall, this very very handsome guy comes into my business to apply, (I am a corporate trainer for an upper scale restaurant chain) He has that European look about him, and will from now on be called the Romanian. He is hired, as most of the girls would have quit if my boss hadn't hired him. So, he goes through his training, and we become good working friends, have a pretty great working relationship, and he elaborates more about himself, where he is from, why he has moved back to my town... turns out it was to reconcile with an ex. As we are co-workers, I would have never considered dating him, and him telling me about getting back with the ex put him strictly in the friend zone.
Well, fast forward to almost a year later, and the Romanian has defected to more lucrative climes, has since ended things with the ex. Turns out, reconciliation wasn't entirely reconciling or comforting. On his last night, I was playing manager, and after the rush, I was sitting at a table in the bar having dinner. Now, before I go into this little pathetic dilemma, I have to say... this guy, he makes me slightly stupid. In that butterflyee kind of way. AND, this is the first time I have felt like this in several years.
So, back to the last night, as I said I was sitting down at the table, having my little meal and he come up, and standing to my left, chatting with me. He casually puts his hand on my shoulder, and leaves it there... we continue to chat a bit more...then he goes off to do a lap round the restaurant, and check his tables. On his return visit, he does the same, stands to my left, casually puts his hand on my shoulder and continues to chat with me. And, once more he does another lap, goes to send his table on their way and then again, comes back only this time to sit down in front of me... we talk about pretty much nothing, and his new job until my boss comes along and tells him to bug off....
About half an hour later, I am in the office, handling check outs for my servers, and in comes my friend. We go through the motions, he does his checkout... and leaves, I'm getting up to leave the office. He's since changed, and comes back and tells me how much he's really enjoyed working with me, and what a real pleasure it has been...his voice gets a little husky, and he hugs me. Hugs me tightly, in that we were hip to hip, not ass out kind of friendly hug...and it probably lasted about 10 seconds too long, but it was long enough to get a whiff, and man did he smell delicious. As we broke apart, he tells me to keep in touch...via facebook. -sigh- and, he leaves... The end.
SO.. I realize that this is not earth shattering, but I am highly considering pursuing this line of hotness. I do not mean to sound like I am objectifying the guy, I am not... he is pretty darn cute tho. Here is the rub, I ponder if a guy like him could ever be interested in a girl like me. I am not the atypical female he has dated in the past, you know.. pretty, short, delicate. I am 5'8, a little round where I shouldn't be, and I have a stronger, longer build. I am not at all grotesque, but like I said, not the norm of what this guy dates.
I feel like a kid hahaha, BUT... as I said before, I haven't been this interested in anyone since..well, a long long time. Since I haven't put myself out there in a long time, I am afraid to live on the edge, and take the rejection, that is sure to come. I don't think less of myself, however life for me is about being a work in progress at the moment; recovering from the death of a parent, trying to whip my body back into shape after neglecting it for the three years that it took her to die, going to school and other stuff. So, I guess I am a bit fragile.
Also, I don't want to give him the wrong idea. Sure, I can be a sure thing... BUT, I don't want him to think that all I am after is sex. I genuinely like this person, and I like who I am around him. He makes me think, which is a good thing. However, I don't want to catch him on the rebound either.
What is a girl to do?? Input and advice is MOST welcome.. if anyone ever reads this.. :)